I am happy that someone always make my day .

Lately I had been giggling alot . Infront of my Notebook and my parents had to yell at me for my behaviour . I meet a wonderful friend , I should say . I like his honesty . I am blessed to have good friends. At first I was worried about Scammers or someone would hurt me.

but then .. i guess I get to know different people and learn thing which i am fearful of .

I used to fearful of Video cam .

I used to fearful of sending my ugly photo to others.


I used to ....

Thanks God for all good friends.
I AM surrounded by love. All is well. I NOW deserve love, romance and joy – and all the good that life has to offer me

The Joy of Living

I think I am not beautiful . But someone say it is all in the brain . I appreciate what been said . Another friend , common I am not a person who is so swallow , it is who inside that counts . Maybe afterall this is a beautiful world . When I open my email , I had a surprise picture of leo. I feel he look more like a gaming guy , a person who love to play games(Video games) . Anyway I thank Him .
But I am happy when I can do little to bring happiness to others. The joy of living , is seeing people appreciating you .
Today is my sister’s birthday . I wanted to give her a little surprise . Actually I thought of sending via delievery company .But then I thought it wasn’t as meaningful for me to get special for her. Well , Shirleen. She is like a little sister to me who always encourage me whenever I hit my lowest period . I would sms her and share my woe with her. I remember once I cried and I sms her . It was her holiday that day . she took the time to comfort me .
I always thought after I left there, wouldn’t find a sister after Sandra .I am glad I found new sister here. Rena lend me her SAFRA card.
I used the card and brought the special marathon socks for my marathon this Sunday .
I wanted to get the metabolism nutrition pack , so today I took a taxi to Marine parade just to buy that product and the personnel doesn’t give me one nutrition pack . I thinking leaving the product here because my mum would scold me if she see a lot of craps at my home .
I brought Fancl slim product yesterday . I find them useful.
So next month I better keep to my budget .I am so happy today . My mum always yelled at me lately and get alittle worried about me . I had a cup of coffee and I having caffeine poisoning now
“Love is the great miracle cure. Loving ourselves works miracles in our lives

LOVING TREATMENT

Deep at the centre of my being there is an infinite well of love.
I now allow this love to flow to the surface.
It fills my heart, my body, my mind, my consciousness, my very being, and radiates out from me in all directions and returns to me multiplied.
The more love I use and give, the more I have to give, the supply is endless.
The use of love makes me feel good; it is an expression of my inner joy.
Yes, I love myself, therefore I take loving care of my body.
I lovingly feed it nourishing food and beverages.
I lovingly groom it and dress it and my body lovingly responds to me with vibrant health and energy.
I love myself, therefore I provide for myself a comfortable home, one that fills all my needs and is a pleasure to be in.
I fill the rooms with the vibration of love so that all who enter, myself included, will feel this love and be nourished by it.
I love myself, therefore I work at a job that I truly enjoy doing, one that uses all my talents and abilities, working with and for people that I love and love me, and earning a good income.
I love myself, therefore, I behave in a loving way to all people for I know that that which I give out returns to me multiplied.
I only attract loving people in my world for they are a mirror of what I am.
I love myself, therefore I forgive and totally release the past and all past experiences and I am free.
I love myself, therefore I love totally in the now, experiencing each moment as good and knowing that my future is bright, and joyous and secure, for I am a beloved child of the universe and the universe lovingly takes care of me now and forever more.
And so it is.

Louise L. Hay

Blessed am I indeed . Thank God

Well I think as he was right. Good things are coming to me.
I did a few crazy things .But I was happy that a few replied me .Yah I hope we can take our friendship forward. Well, I am unconfident, thinking maybe he is too good. I like his photo. 4 to 8 year older than me ,good education , and prefect for me ., give me a sense of security just by looking at his photo .I am so happy and excited on received his email . But then I worried. What if, I am not enough? What If I am not pretty enough? What if …oh ….Me…always don’t allow new experiences and new people in my life.
Wishing God would bless me in this new found friend of mine. And it would flourish .e
Well, currently I feel guilty because Sxxxx was ill. I felt bad towards him because I had said some nasty words to him and he said he miss me. But , honestly I get swept off by his chasing .And he would always wanted to meet up with me .But recently , I had been busy and he sums me asked that I am not interested in him. Honestly, I had hindrance in my heart. Age was something I fear. I couldn’t feel secured being with him. I just think he is too young to understand love and I feel maybe he is just having a crush over me just like henry that was very keen towards me. But when he saw I am fatter, he starts to despise me. But Sxxx know me when I am fat , So maybe after all he didn’t mind me at all and love me for who I am . But no matter how I could feel that he is like my little brother and he would sms sweet words to me every day, but I scolded him. I felt bad scolding him as I want to retain as friends.

I managed to register for Iris Aerobic classes. I am so happy. I tried for the past weekend and I yelled at my dad, because I thought I thought it was his fault. And then I called up the transaction company, and she explained to me that on weekend, the traffic is busy thus the transaction wasn’t successful.
Okay, I think I owe my dad apologies, I did tell my mum.
To be honest, I think I had loving parents who support me and accept me for all my craps. I deduce my SSRI and I become cranky. Cranky in terms when I go for race clinic, because of my slowness and size, I felt left out. Even when I asked my boss for permission to do things, he agreed and I don’t know why I imagine so much of negativity coming. I think as someone tell me , her daughter meet a molester and she has phobia about it and she is on medicine and also till 10 year later, she refused to be touch by her bf . I guess we are after all human. Sometimes the past does give a lot of bad effects on us. I don’t know when I can let go of my past .but I must get on, because wonderful people are coming into my life.
I wish you would give your msn, and I get to talk to you more often and I am happy because you are my dream guy. 4 to 8 year older than me , wear spectacles ( I don’t know why when I was little gal , I draw Daddy with spectacles, although my dad doesn’t wear spectacles. My mum joked I wanted a spectacles hubby) and then is caring, warm and secured feeling which I am excited when I look at his photo …….
It is a start of wonderful relationship ……. I going to be in love .Although me never believe love in first sight. I don’t know why …I felt a feeling of joy looking at his photo.