As this Blog is all about how to help myself in Overcoming depression

Here me without Depression .
I dont know why I was inconfident and always feel down . Nomatter how normal and friend say I am not UGLY .
Now
and here me currently ,increase in weight due to SSRI and this blog will be
journey how I walk through the valley of darkness. And I went into marathon
to help me fight my depression .






I used to live in fear of people knowing of I am depressed lady with sudial
intention andI fear of losing my job .
I also had wicked people who dig out my dark secret of my illness and
then joke if I would use my knife cultery during a lunchtime and kill him.
towards his insolence and childish , I learnt and strongly believe in
God prefect timing his retribution will come .Although I never understand
how he could continue his evil and wicked ways causing his best friend
to leave the company and then climb ontop of him .
It is not about him here. Well, It is about me.

I also turn out an increase of weight gain after on SSRI depressant on long term.
I seek medicial help and the cost is very hight for every theraphy session
How I struggled with depression .

How I was a low self esteem lady and because of my traditional up
bringing from my parents . Been Loved is not shown clearly and strict teaching is
brought in my life.

The struggle was tough where you find yourself
KILLING yourself for absurb reason that your working collegues make
a careless joke on you .
killing yourself when your boss say you are lousy ,
killing yourself when u are deny of a bonus which you think you had done nothing.
and many many reason .

There are times I guess it is not easy living with depression and
living with circumstances.
Some people used a bully approach to do that .
it make thier life feel better ,but they forgotten about thier bully approach
may deny them blessing of other .

So a proverb say , "Beware of other is a must ,but attacking and hurting other
heart ,one shouldnt have."

So I struggled with 10KG Gain of weight .









I get views that I will never find any bf because of my size and when people know
I am SSRI , people will run away from me , and many chances would be deny from me.

How true .Let ctd this walk with this blog and in hope people who are going
through what I am going , and may not know about this illness will come here
and exchange ideas,share thier views and encourage each other and build
a friendship by our trouble in life and encourage you to walk through
the dark valley of despair.
WE ARE NOT USELESS .
WE ARE CONTROLLED BY WHAT PEOPLE SAY
WE ARE NOT WE THINK WE ARE .


I tried ways in helping myself .
EXERCISE(A must for all depressed people)
Dieting
Supplements -OMEGA -DHA
CBT-
Prayer ( Talking with God) .