not to let anybody including myseld down

I had a desire to call someone . But then the feeling went away .
I tried to register for my leave yesterday and cliam stuff .But I dun know what wrong with my company network . It didn’t show any popup . I dun have my mobile stick . I feel abit retarded.
I went to asked about certain stuff .I was given wonderful advice.

Do not seek trouble. Does a bird know that it is going to be shot when seeking wood, beware. Snake might bite one to great agony.
Shut down and grind your teeth, Mind your own business. I f you have evil desire, you are likely too hurt to yourself


So I had this evil desire to have Exxx and Lxxxx to me and I guess in the end , it is true they will hurt me . So I guess there are a lot of sankes around here.
I had t SHUT down and grind my teeth , and mind my own business . Yah I mind Eric business too much . I care too much .. And I thank Cindy who help me a lot to kick him out of my life ..Lifang did a lot too…jay had warned me not to be near him as he will burn me down with asshes. I had tried to did it for these 3 days even today I am in office and had a phone accessible . I told myself , I shall not let my mum , Cindy Soh , Shirleen , Lifang and my parents down ….

These golden words are important for me. The art of zen