thanks

I think I am more clearly ..when I talk to wise people.
At least I dont get confused and low .

Yoda said ," You need to know what are the thing u should avoid."

And My australia friend ,encourage something which I had to remember. I will make it through .

I will

what wrong with me

I dun feel like exercise . I dun feel like eating . I just feel totally depressed.

What wrong with me

In the end you should always do the right thing even if it's hard."

It is like 3 am .Then the stoopid feverish sink it again .So what I do ? I swalloing panadol like sweets.
Sleepless again.

A lot of things had been bothering me. Nicholas Spark quotes . I always love. Maybe This day I will spend on t

I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.

People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past."

I dont know why there are times I dwell on past .And I realised that i had seen people who dwell on the ones from the past .So was it the reason why one would feel hurt if I brought up people past? I tried to make an effort not to brought the past . But it is not easy . sometimes something just struck in you .. It is meeting your ex bf on Mrt station .Someone told me it is unavoidable. and another friend of mine could stay without pain with his ex gf . That make people start thinking if he is still dwelling on the past .But everybody had different lifes. It is not for me to question or think anymore except about myself.



They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other ever day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other."
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Loves is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It dose not take offense and is not resentful. Love take no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."

Not much people can ready do that . I think .......maybe afterall ,not only people know what is love .


"I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices youo face might be."

So it is like , maybe I should just MIA for a period. start forgetting who I m . And break free from every tangles I had inside this heart of mine.So it is at least good to M I A . I don't need anybody to support me at this period or sympathies me .Because it make me feel more weak and vulnerable. And it is good to burn all bridges because at least u feel that it is alright to take any trouble by yourself and leave the good memories behind. That what my dad taught me about love.

That what movie taught me about love . He was leaving . She was crying .He broke up with her and make her believe that she was not the one anymore for him . but nobody realised that he was did that so that she could get on with life .And she always thought her as a heartless man,till someone told her that he had die .

I remember crying trillion times watching this romantic movie. Dying young?

Okay ......Here is a song i like ...
Air Supply Good bye....

In the end you should always do the right thing even if it's hard."
3:00 am ....taking my sweets and preparing to go back to sleep.

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future

Lately I am going through a nasty patch of my life . Really nasty .
I dun know why.
I become more and more fearful each day.
Today I say the words , I not suppose to say . I think I just want to be nasty and hurt whoever who hurt my friends or insult my friends.

Jay say..Dun waste people time. Hmm..Got abit hurt. maybe we all shouldnt be wasting our time...He is refering to the other friend who I had so much hope in .

I think I hope too much in him .Or maybe I was overboard ?

but so much things I kept inside..

Then I felt that I lost my friends . Nobody cares. I am all alone .U can in a shopping mall , there is people around u . The one beside u may be your friends .But suddenly , U dun understand why u feel like u are all alone .Living in your world and U wish u can see or hear anybody .But then every sms become hurtful words to me.

U felt totally piss with everything . And wonder why the stoopid doctor dun prescribed sleeping medicine? because U really wish to sleep your day off each day .
Dun talk to anybody .Dun be friend with anybody .

Just me again.

I had two years of depression and I thought perhaps this decision might bring with it some acceptance, an end to the turmoil each month. Instead I am left with an aching emptiness and overwhelming grief and sadness especially lately . I don’t feel any certainty either that I have made the right decision in life . But I do know that I can’t keep riding this rollercoaster of emotions each month, so it is time to step off the ride.I suddenly think it is good for me to cut off all friends. So that maybe after all , she just went away quietly. well ,it is good that I had disappear ,then to left with agonzing pain left behind.

I guess cameraman doesn’t agree with any of this. He thinks I am making a mistake and that I will regret everything . We can’t seem to talk about it anymore without it ending in an argument and tears, so we’ve stopped talking about it. I didnt just cut off the line . I went to see people flying kite at puggol . It is beautiful yet

I feel like such a failure – a failure for the months....

Okay . I know I hurt u all.

Well ,Aplogise to any friend who find me really ...whatever...

Thank You Yoda.

Oh no...

r Geraldine,

Oh please! Stop being such a pessimist!! You are wallowing in self pity at the moment, pick up your socks and stop feeling sorry for yourself! Your depression is making you feel very down, but don’t let it get the better of you. If you are feeling that bad, have you been back to the doctor to discuss the problem? Are you still taking those weight loss pills?

Get out your Bible at night time – or if you have lots of time at work, look up the bible on your computer and have a read - I think another visit to the doctor is needed!!!!!


PS you are not worthless, just directionless at the moment – don’t lower your standards just to feel wanted – not worth it, as in the end you will feel worse!

The LIttle black DOg

The little black dog is walking around me recently ....

Not becoming a dirt

thats right...
listen to me
at this stage
both of them is not stable
any third party coming in will only end up dirt
regardless of whatever they do...
they need to settle the problem themselve
i dun wan u to beome dirts...

Thinsg to be remember

xxx says:
neutral...
a word which is hard to define
but the time comes...
u will know what to do
I am happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing says:
i keep this words on my blog .
thx


NEUTRAL

开心鬼上身

开心鬼上身高清在线观看。影片主角相满是一位为生活和寂寞所累的男子，企图用自杀结束 郁闷的一生。谁知，四个鬼魂借机附体，企图利用相满的肉身完成自

A korea drama which make me cried .

I guess it is been in his shoes , make me more tearful.Actually I thought it should be a laughter show . didnt expect it to be a slow story ....
Touched...Maybe ..afterall, life is not just you only ....

结局真的是很出人意料，最后他恢复记忆那段音乐出来时，我的眼泪立刻就出来了，好长时间没有看一部电影会看到流泪的时候了，电影真的很感人，值得推荐。

Postive Activity

1) Jogging

2) Learning art or skills

3)Play with Lucky

4)Go aerobic

5)Volunteering- playing with kids

6) Listen to a favourite song
)Take that old multicolored rag that you’ve used to wipe paint from brushes. Stretch it, frame it, and call it some thing like “random art.” Carve sculptures out of soap. Watch but ter flies in flight. Photograph birds in a tree.

I dun want to Go out problem advice.

The problem of not wanting to go with them is just the depression, and nothing to fear, it is normal. The next time you are asked, grit your teeth, say yes and make sure that you go. It is something that you will have to force yourself to do, otherwise you will become a recluse and be even more 'down'. This will take courage and determination, but you must grasp the situation and go through with it - so the next time you are asked, say yes and follow through - you will feel sick, frightened and you won't want to go, but once you get to the outing, you will be ok, it's the going that is the terrible part.

The best way to start is to go out for lunch with your colleagues when they ask, start small and during the day and then when they go out at night, then you will be able to manage it!

the emperor new drug

Lately I had been reading book on how to cut down your prescription of anti depressant tablet.

I had invest much of buying book online on depression.

Unstruck by Gordon james were very helpful . I borrowed this book from the library and decided to buy it online.

I am also reading the other book called the Emperor'S New drug .So is it really an emporer new drug.

I will update on this website after finishing reading them .