Loss , Gloominess and Saddess

The Black dog came back to my life again .Nobody know this black dog .

From High , I am sink to the darkest despair.
From Relieved , I felt abit been hit down .

I felt like a failure .TOTALLY FAILURE.

SUDDENLY I dont want anything in my life.

Dun want friends because I dont want to be hurt.

dont want everything ......Yet I feel I am failure .

I wanted to say I face the fear saddness , In return of my friendship , I was repay insult and attacks of all kind .
I always believe in been true to one and things will work out well .But this world system doesnt work this way .

I think some people dont envy of what they had in life .While sometimes I wish I am her but I am not her.

Yet .... I think I am completely Loss once again ....

Sometimes i thought it is maybe better to ignorant and numb to everything.

Suddenly I crashed and I start to feast on food again.....I went to my room after the feasting and I cried. I suddenly think i dont want to live anymore. Just a thought .. a crazy thought ........but I mustnt let the dark dog eat me up...


What a failure I am.


It's In The Valleys I Grow

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then I have to remember
That it's in the valleys I grow.

If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.

My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it's in the valleys I grow!


--Author Unknown