Someone remind me.,...

Thursday, 28 April 2011 14:04:42
RE: Hi Geraldine
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From:
"Best, Gillian"
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To: Geraldine Chan

Hi Geraldine



You mustn’t worry so much, as EVERYBODY has times that they feel nothing is going ok. If you are feeling a bit low, accept that and continue on as best you can, it is tough, no one is saying that life is easy or that you don’t feel things, but try and continue on, and there is always the hope that you will ‘work through’ the feeling. Don’t give up, remember how far you have come, and keep on trying. Give yourself a break and read a good book, or just sit and watch the tv and chill out. But, don’t get uptight and just remember that you will get through this and don’t forget to ask God to help you!!!



Take care,

A song Humming in my brain ...

你把我灌醉
Lately after I allow friends into my life . I learnt more people . I met people who is sincere and truthful And I also meet people who are I think different from others . I also realized having the same birthday as on eperson , it doesn’t meant the person had the same character as another .
Lately my life is filled with unexpected sunshine, Every morning , It would be a zest for life . Coz I meet a friend who is filled with optimism, but I get worried if one would get turn off after seeing the real me . As I suffer from seeing the real me syndrome.
Whatever , I should be more confident of myself as one say .
SO here come a long weekend , I am looking forward it . As I will meeting my friend , but I had my fear of meeting my friend .
T he story of cactus plants
. A few cactus plants are very cold .So they start to gather close together to gain warm .And then they were close enough to gain warm .but then they start to feel each other pricks start to be poking against each other .
I am most afraid of that . What after I gain enough warm , then it learnt that I had a lot of pricks and start hurting others .So the story talked about the art of staying warm together ,yet not pricking each other . I feel that is the difficult thing in my life As I confess, I am extremist . I could either love something , or hate something . I cant do it half way love and half love hate . I can listen to same music for every day for 1 year and never get bored .
Like this morning , I start the day by listening to KIT CHAN “ You make me drown .” Maybe lately I feel I am drowned by optimism ,kindness and great humor.
Have you ever passed by someone and happen to just see one .. And that person left a small foot print . It is like the story ,” Walk left , Walk right .” And then you walk a big round , actually you found the person . It is kind of of so devaju feeling.


开 往城市边缘开
把车窗都摇下来 用速度换一点痛快
孤单 被热闹的夜赶出来

却无从告白 是你留给我的悲哀
哦 爱 让我变得看不开
哦 爱 让我自找伤害

把我灌醉 你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪 我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉 你让我心碎
爱得收不回*

最好最坏都猜
你为何离开 可惜永远没有答案
对我 你爱得太晚

又走得太快 我的心你不明白
哦 爱 让我变得看不开
哦 爱 让我自找伤害

.我梦到那里你都在 怎么能忘怀
你那神秘的笑脸 是不是说
放不下你是我活该

如这歌"爱 让我变得看不开" ， "哦 爱 让我自找伤害"
只要有爱就会有疼。我害怕掺闪删任何人。但是这种感觉是不由你来说的。

"我梦到那里你都在 怎么能忘怀。"
"你那神秘的笑脸 是不是说"
人因为那神秘， 让我有点我灌醉 的感觉。甚至会有梦到。。。

但是有女生人对我说，"你可不要多情了，没人会喜欢你的。现在的你。照镜子吧！"
Okay … What up from my Tarzan dream . Sometimes I think there will be some prince outside who can save me from this jungle and teach me how to hunt and then …..okay ..wake up ..knock knock .
Then weekend, doing volunteer job at Kranji Dog Shelter. I do worried about volunteer job . What if …what if … as I was reminded , you love to say what if inside your brain. Let think some positive things .
What if you enjoy yourself and you decided you want to stay with the dogs forever .
What if you learn more from helping shelter dog . And you want to set up your own . wouldn’t it be a adventure?
Sometimes I dread been me.
Been me is like…What is me?
I know I had no brain on my own .I used to love to draw , watch animation (Slam Dunk , Kenan) you named it ,some borrow from my classmates , and some buy the monthly comic magazines. But my dad wouldn’t like it when I buy them because they are considered useless in his eyes.
I remember contributing to the newspaper and my drawing was published .
That was one happiest period of my life.
What I really want in my life? I never really question. I just go with the flow.
I never choose my life path . Because I basically live for other . Not for myself .
Yah Yoga lesson . I was shocked when Peter ( My Yoga instructor ) start to help me to unpack my yoga mat for me . I never expect that kindness .Then he taught us to mediate in sitting “Lotus position” and then do quiet mediation and explain a lot .But I found all my limbs are like numb . I couldn’t even twist or bend properly .
AS Hisham ,,my Pilate s instructor used to tell me. “You Gal , must be super stress up in my life. Take coffee to gain energy and take sugary stuff to reduce stress , sit infont of PC everyday .”
I say Yes Sir . How do you know ?
He answered , I am a holistic nutrition too . By the way you bend and your flexibility , all of you are reveal in your position .
Hahahah… I met him recently .But he didn’t recognize me . I don’t dare to call him , as I promise I buy him chocolates from Melbourne and I didn’t .
OKAY I had to rush my work after I think of things to be grateful of .

Sometimes when the Pc just dont work

LAtely I am BIT sensitive.
I was asked for my photo so I email one my photo .Then I didnt get any response .Thus i thought oh Good . Maybe This friend depise me , found me ugly and fat .Sorry friend for misunderstanding you and I appreciate that You took the effort to ask me why there is no mails. Thanks ....

U make me realised that there are really times I felt oversentive over everything .


But Today I realised it actually the doing of the mail server ,that my email had been blocked . I only realised that when the kind person took the effort to ask me why I didnt email back .

I realised .Oh .. it was what Gill said . my email get block most of time by her company email too .
I realised in my life there are alot of times .
I allow my senstive mind to eat myself up .

For eg someone happen to be engross in thier thought and I would say Hi . And the person didnt reply back . I would conclude ,great , She dislike me .She is so unfriendly .Yesterday i used the printer and she is upset over that .

Then after a few day , the person happen to call you and then you realised she over overwhelmed by personal family problem .

i realised ..Oh ........everybody had a small part of oversenstive and depression in them . Because I also encounter people who misinterpt me when I left my msn online for 24 .And sometimes if the power trip , I wouldnt see the message left by that friend. And till a few days later , I msn him to ask about work . He said," I thought U didnt want to talk to me anymore . " I explained to him that I leave my msn on and sometimes my notebook run out of Battery and I dun get to see the message .
And he happily,"Oh . I nearly thought you ignoring me . " And it happen 3 times.


Hahahaha..Life is very funny ... I hope people who read my blog would understand if I dont reply , It doesnt meant that I am rude or some snobbish brat . I am like you . Just plain simple jane .

But I also met one who misunderstand so much . He took my non reply very badly and then second day insulted me . Say i feel sorry for you . U are rude blah blah and alot of sacastic remarks. I decided not to continue to listen to that fellow abusive languages and it is just too bad that he refuse to listen to explanation and too bad that we cant be friends.

So I thank All those who persist and took the effort to move my friendship with you .
I am blessed because of you . And towards all who suffer same as me.. hope we will remember not our brain tell us and jump to conclusion so easily .